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I couldn’t stop myself. I know that I have a lot to learn to be able to do digital arts, but drawing is one thing I believe I’m blessed with so I did this.The day before yesterday, Max Lucado tweeted this:    I’ve never been surprised by God’s judgment, but I’m still stunned by his grace. #WhenGodWhispersAnd I share the same thoughts. I felt the same that day as well.When some of my professors and instructors uploaded our grades in FB groups, I didn’t look at them. I told myself that I would face everything once SystemOne updated. It did last night.I was watching the 10th anniversary show of M!Countdown when I saw some friends’ tweets about it and my heart started beating fast at once. I wasn’t ready. Around the afternoon I was talking about it with my mother then that happened. I was enjoying M!Countdown and thought of not looking at my grades because it might make me not enjoy it, but then I thought that if I waited longer, I may still not enjoy the show, so I decided to get over it quickly. I grabbed my laptop and opened my account.My eyes quickly skimmed through the screen and I broke into a grin once I didn’t saw the dreaded 5.0. This past four months, I was praying hard for three subjects: CMSC 2, FIL 21, and COMA 104.CMSC 2 is an elective subject. I know that I did poorly in. It was mostly group work and I wasn’t able to help much because there are other group works (107’s) that I thought needed to put much more importance to.FIL 21 is a core subject. I thought I was going to fail because my exams were not good and I wasn’t reciting frequently. My written works were not good as well. I wasn’t even able to completely read Berinareu, our required reading there. I was - and still am - embarrassed because my professor here is my adviser.Last but definitely not the least, COMA 104. Language and Culture. I was quite sure I was to repeat this. My professor here happened to be one of the “notorious” professors. He has failed a lot of students in his different classes already. Together with most of my classmates, I checked my partial standing on the day of our supposedly last class meeting which our professor didn’t attend to because he was on leave, though I still don’t know why he was in the department that day. The results we saw almost broke our hearts. I myself almost teared up; I got 4.0. Had I not got a few points higher, I would have got a 5.0. And so, this was the subject I really dreaded to see.When I saw my grades here, I really couldn’t help but praise God! I can’t think of any other reason why I got good grades in CMSC 2 (despite my lack of focus) and FIL 21 (despite my poor performance). And most of all, I can’t think of anything but God’s love for a reason as to why I got the golden 3.0 in COMA 104. To top it all, I got a 1.0 - my very first! - in THEA 107, the course that needed as much attention as a newborn baby. It was the course I had some requirements passed late. It was the course that had us involved into a big production. I had some absences during the production because of the youth services and cell group meetings I chose to attend to instead. Now, I’m glad I didn’t miss them. I know I don’t deserve these grades, but it wouldn’t be grace if I deserved it.I remember our pastor here saying that more than his difficulty understanding the Holy Trinity, the one he said that is most difficult to understand is God’s love. I wholeheartedly agree.In His love I am drowning.

I couldn’t stop myself. I know that I have a lot to learn to be able to do digital arts, but drawing is one thing I believe I’m blessed with so I did this.

The day before yesterday, Max Lucado tweeted this:

    I’ve never been surprised by God’s judgment, but I’m still stunned by his grace. #WhenGodWhispers

And I share the same thoughts. I felt the same that day as well.

When some of my professors and instructors uploaded our grades in FB groups, I didn’t look at them. I told myself that I would face everything once SystemOne updated. It did last night.

I was watching the 10th anniversary show of M!Countdown when I saw some friends’ tweets about it and my heart started beating fast at once. I wasn’t ready. Around the afternoon I was talking about it with my mother then that happened. I was enjoying M!Countdown and thought of not looking at my grades because it might make me not enjoy it, but then I thought that if I waited longer, I may still not enjoy the show, so I decided to get over it quickly. I grabbed my laptop and opened my account.

My eyes quickly skimmed through the screen and I broke into a grin once I didn’t saw the dreaded 5.0. This past four months, I was praying hard for three subjects: CMSC 2, FIL 21, and COMA 104.

CMSC 2 is an elective subject. I know that I did poorly in. It was mostly group work and I wasn’t able to help much because there are other group works (107’s) that I thought needed to put much more importance to.

FIL 21 is a core subject. I thought I was going to fail because my exams were not good and I wasn’t reciting frequently. My written works were not good as well. I wasn’t even able to completely read Berinareu, our required reading there. I was - and still am - embarrassed because my professor here is my adviser.

Last but definitely not the least, COMA 104. Language and Culture. I was quite sure I was to repeat this. My professor here happened to be one of the “notorious” professors. He has failed a lot of students in his different classes already. Together with most of my classmates, I checked my partial standing on the day of our supposedly last class meeting which our professor didn’t attend to because he was on leave, though I still don’t know why he was in the department that day. The results we saw almost broke our hearts. I myself almost teared up; I got 4.0. Had I not got a few points higher, I would have got a 5.0. And so, this was the subject I really dreaded to see.

When I saw my grades here, I really couldn’t help but praise God! I can’t think of any other reason why I got good grades in CMSC 2 (despite my lack of focus) and FIL 21 (despite my poor performance). And most of all, I can’t think of anything but God’s love for a reason as to why I got the golden 3.0 in COMA 104. To top it all, I got a 1.0 - my very first! - in THEA 107, the course that needed as much attention as a newborn baby. It was the course I had some requirements passed late. It was the course that had us involved into a big production. I had some absences during the production because of the youth services and cell group meetings I chose to attend to instead. Now, I’m glad I didn’t miss them. I know I don’t deserve these grades, but it wouldn’t be grace if I deserved it.

I remember our pastor here saying that more than his difficulty understanding the Holy Trinity, the one he said that is most difficult to understand is God’s love. I wholeheartedly agree.

In His love I am drowning.

godsradicaldaughter:

this is not just a post. i really want to do this.

  • *holds out hand* stop scrolling, please.
  • *hugs you really tight*
  • "You are so loved, beloved, and I think that you have a beautiful soul. Keep on hoping and believing! God has amazing things for you."
  • *lets go*
  • you can continue.
Just a quick drawing of Aladdin. He’s just so adorable. <3

Just a quick drawing of Aladdin. He’s just so adorable. <3

A lot of things had happened since the start of the year and I’d given up blogging about them a long time ago. Anyway, I’m still in a vacation because the university’s academic calendar has changed. Instead of starting classes around June, it is moved to August. Now I have time to do a lot of random things and that includes rummaging through the old stuff I had way back in high school.

I found some old notebooks and one of them is where I used to draw fan arts four years ago. These are some of the fan arts. I’m just so delighted because of the RyoSaku one. I recently looked at the raws of New Prince of Tennis and adkjnjlaskxl THEY WENT ON A WHAT SEEMS TO BE A DATE! MY SHIPPING HEART WENT ALL DOKI DOKI <3

Oh, and I just realized how unattractive that Usui one is. I remember staring at a manga page (KWMS was not yet animated at that time) then drawing it while at school and being somehow proud of it. Fail.

Now all I like out of these are my drawings of Allen, Lenalee, Miki, and Eiji. HAHA!

I think I should pick up my pencils again. My skills are getting rustier than ever.

"Nothing is burdensome and tiresome when driven by love for God."

I hope people will spend the 14th knowing the real Love.

I’ve got a new bed because the girl who’s helping our mother in the market is now living separately with her husband. She uses my previous bed which I really liked. I’m not saying that I don’t like this one though. It’s just a bit less softer than the other one.

Anyway, I feel bad for her because she broke up with him, but at the same time, I’m happy for her because of the same reason. Gah.

Her relationship with him reminds me to trust God more on such a thing, that is, marriage. It reminds me of how different the relationships between those who don’t have a personal relationship with Him and those who do have a deep relationship with Him is.

Earlier, I had a Bible study with my leader. It was supposed to be later around ten, but she has a night in prayer. It is pretty difficult to explain the feeling, but I’ve got to say that I’m so blessed after it. For the first time in our Bible study, I cried.

The Word is in 1 Timothy 4. I just… have this certain feeling that’s making me down for weeks now and it’s just this week when it troubled me so much. Seems like my leader felt it (she has a gift of discernment), so she asked my housemate to have their Bible study tomorrow since she’s not going home.

Then, she suggested that I have a day in prayer, so I will. I’ll have it on Saturday and I’m so excited for it. I feel so thirsty of God’s presence now and I’m so thankful that He used my leader to give me the solution. I’m just… so blessed.

godsradicaldaughter:

GODSRADICALDAUGHTER’S 1ST BOOK GIVEAWAY 
This blog is running for almost three years, and this is a sign of my thanks for all the encouragement and love you have given me.
There will be one winner. He/she will be receiving:
Refuel by Pastor Ru dela Torre [new]
Roadtrip by Pastor Ru dela Torre [new]
The winner should also tell me his/her favorite color, bible verse/quote, and hobby, since I have another surprise or two to give him/her. :”)
Here are the rules:
This giveaway is open to all bloggers who are living in the Philippines.
Must be following me.
To join: Just reblog this post. You can reblog this post as many times as you like [One reblog = one entry]. The winner will be selected through the use of an online random generator.
The winner must be willing to give me his/her address and contact details.
The giveaway will be closed on December 25, 2013 at exactly 11:59 pm.
Winners should be able to respond within the 48 hours after the announcement.
Feel free to message me through Tumblr or via email (pamsiicarbungco@gmail.com, with the subject “Tumblr Giveaway”) if you have any concern or question. Thank you for everything and you’re all greatly blessed, guys! :)
So much love,
Pam

godsradicaldaughter:

GODSRADICALDAUGHTER’S 1ST BOOK GIVEAWAY 

This blog is running for almost three years, and this is a sign of my thanks for all the encouragement and love you have given me.

There will be one winner. He/she will be receiving:

  1. Refuel by Pastor Ru dela Torre [new]
  2. Roadtrip by Pastor Ru dela Torre [new]

The winner should also tell me his/her favorite color, bible verse/quote, and hobby, since I have another surprise or two to give him/her. :”)

Here are the rules:

  • This giveaway is open to all bloggers who are living in the Philippines.
  • Must be following me.
  • To join: Just reblog this post. You can reblog this post as many times as you like [One reblog = one entry]. The winner will be selected through the use of an online random generator.
  • The winner must be willing to give me his/her address and contact details.
  • The giveaway will be closed on December 25, 2013 at exactly 11:59 pm.
  • Winners should be able to respond within the 48 hours after the announcement.

Feel free to message me through Tumblr or via email (pamsiicarbungco@gmail.com, with the subject “Tumblr Giveaway”) if you have any concern or question. Thank you for everything and you’re all greatly blessed, guys! :)

So much love,

Pam

Nothing is Impossible - Planetshakers | 0 plays

One time, while there were worship songs playing, I was talking to God about my having no confidence to lead to Christ the people He has introduced to me. I felt like I wasn’t capable of the task because I lack so much. Then, this song played suddenly that I couldn’t help but cry because it became His reassurance to me. Through this song, He reminded me that it isn’t me that will work but it is Him working while using me.

Then, earlier, one minute before the online registration, this played again. It’s such a sweet assurance of God that He will deliver me well from the circumstances that will happen.